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My boyfriend is teaching me how to play bass. That makes me really happy. He makes me really happy.
I need to start going to sleep early again but I’m not tired. I’m still sick.
A few things I’m thankful for this Thanksgiving -
1. My mother.
2. Our amazing troops, my neighbor brought it to my attention that Newsweek didn’t put them in their list of 100 things to be thankful for. Well I’m thankful for you.
3. All of the people who work to make our society run smoothly. This means all of the teachers, police, firemen etc.
4. Desi, because he’s such lovely company.
5. Having enough money to live comfortably (this includes a lot of things).
6. My parents getting divorced.
7. My really loving pets.
8. My grandfather.
9. My family moving out of Russia.
10. Most of my friends.
11. My health.
12. My therapist.
13. Being exposed to art from a ridiculously young age.
14. Having enough money to travel.
15. My friend Sherri.
16. My first grade teacher, Ms.Seiler, because she was amazing.
17. “Alternative Lifestyles” (haha).
18. Good literature.
19. The internet and the various imageboards on it.
20. All things that are positive pertaining to the arts (damn that’s vague).
Those are a few, I made a lot of them pretty vague but they cover a lot. Happy Thanksgiving.
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6 hour phone calls with Desi are so pleasant.
I woke up at 4 this afternoon. I slept for over 11 and a half hours.
I wish I could be as talented as Yamamoto Takato.
I need new headphones.
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In a perfect world, I’d be able to utilize colour as well as Audrey Kawasaki.
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: peaches, devart, deviant art, guro, peaches nyc
http://sheathsandpills.deviantart.com
is my devART
I haven’t really uploaded anything to it. I will though. I want to add my illustrations rather than photographs. I’ve been too lazy to utilize my scanner but whatever.
It’ll probably end up just being a gurofest and Mr. C will think I’m creepy (he probably already thinks I’m creepy though).
Cheers.
Oh, and I went to see Peaches on Saturday. It was an okay show, so many unattractive pseudo hipsters. I got a shirt that says “Fuck The Pain Away” and I plan to wear it to school tomorrow. Let’s see how that goes.
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: creative halloween costume, deadmau5, halloween costume, http://zoomscua.tumblr.com/, vegan smoothie recipies, vegan smoothies
My friend made a deadmau5 “headpiece” for Halloween.
Obviously he is quite talented. I love Michael Andrew Zoom Lozano!
Lurk him here -
Being sick has helped me to become a vegan smoothie expert. So what if making vegan smoothies is really easy.
SMOOTHIE #1
So you take one banana, about a cup or a cup and a quarter of vanilla soymilk, one package of acai puree and about half a cup of wildberries. Add sugar to taste, but remember that acai is kind of bitter.
Not that exciting.
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: bulimia isn't badass, diet tips, health tips, not pro-ana
Here are some tips, not really diet tips but more of health tips. I guess some people would consider them to be diet tips but they’re really just a reminder for me friend. This isn’t some pro-ana crap, you could find that easily on teh interwebzzzzz. These are just a few things that have helped me keep my weight in check and keep my midsection small, even though all of my weight goes to my bum anyway. Not even my hips…
:3
You had the problem of not eating good food lately – well here’s some good food tips, at least in my opinion.
Spinach + Garlic + Olive Oil = Yummy. It’s also low in calories, good for you and quite filling.
Soups from Whole Foods and Trader Joe’s taste good and they’re also low in calories and they’re filling. Make sure that they don’t have too much sodium though (they shouldn’t, but check anyway).
By soup I don’t mean Lobster Bisque.
Hahaha.
Also, STAY AWAY FROM TAKE OUT AND FAST FOOD. If you must get Chinese Food you can go with Broccoli with Garlic Sauce with no oil. Get it with brown rice. It’s filling and yummy. Don’t get McDonald’s (IT’S POISON) or Burger King…not even Wendy’s really. Everything is still high in calories, it’s just slightly less poisonous than McDonald’s. Also, NO TACO BELL. Not even the rice. My body now thanks me for eating fast food by HATING me. I get really nauseous and tired and it’s not fun. I just stay away from the crap now.
I don’t know how to stress this enough -
DON’T DRINK YOUR CALORIES!
I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE DON’T REALIZE THAT DRINKING A CRAPLOAD OF SODA WILL MAKE THEM GAIN WEIGHT.
So
1. NO SODA.
2. NO SNAPPLE.
3. NO ARIZONA ICED TEA.
pretty much – nothing except for water.
You like Red Bull, don’t you Daisy? Get the low calorie Red Bull. Coffee is fine, try to not add a bunch of sugar or milk to it though. I love double espressos black, especially if they’re made well. They happen to be low in calories and um…pretentious…but that’s okay. They’re lovely. If they’re made well they’re better than many things.
Also, try to drink soy milk rather than regular milk. It has less calories and it’s better for you. Trader Joe’s soy milk has 90 calories per serving!
Also, try to drink as much water as possible before and during meals. People might think you’re bulimic/ a raver / a junkie and that’s not really okay but who cares. You’ll eat less and you’ll be healthier. Also, water is good for your body.
Also, don’t eat a bunch of desserts. If you’re an emotional eater then TRY TO FIX THAT. I don’t understand eating when you’re all sadface because it’ll just make you feel worse about yourself when you can’t fit into any of your clothes and people start telling you that you look like you’ve put on the pounds. Also, don’t even bother with trying to be bulimic, to anyone reading this, because no one truly feel bad for you if you’re bulimic. It’s also not that easy to lose weight and you end up being bloated. It’s an actual EATING DISORDER and it’s NOT BADASS TO BE BULIMIC. I’ve never been bulimic but I do have bulimic friends and it’s actually like omgznotglamorousandfun! If you want to end up dying and and actually lose weight, go do hard drugs instead. You won’t even have buy food then.
So yeah. No ice cream, no cake, no binging on crappy chocolate or anything else for that matter. Figure out how to portion your food. They say you shouldn’t eat anything larger than the size of your fist. I have small hands. Screw that. Learn your calories and learn what’s actually bad for you, you lard. Some Americans think that McDonald’s is a restaurant so you never know what they think is healthy.
They say you shouldn’t eat food after 7 but who the hell is going to follow that. Don’t eat LARGE AMOUNTS OF FOOD after 7. If you must eat large amounts of food, try to eat all of that crap before 9.
Avoid fried food as much as possible. Also avoid anything like cream because food with cream is obviously fattening.
Try to eat more veggies and fruit. Especially more veggies. Also try to eat less processed food.
If you get a sandwich every morning, take the top part of bread off, it saves calories.
xo, that’s all I can think of right now.
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: Halloween, Hot Topic, Obama, procrastination
I’m sitting on my couch, procrastinating from doing my 3 film analysis essays. I have hives on my stomach and my hands are exceptionally itchy. My hands, legs, feet and my largest joints are quite achy. This is pleasant. Everything is pleasant. I need to be okay by this weekend so that I can go to the Peaches show. My throat hates me and I’m tired.
My film project has been going well. We dropped a lot of ideas because we have to make each film (linear, semi-linear and non-linear) 5 minutes long. I haven’t been updating because I’ve been spending a lot of time with lovie.
I also had detention twice this week and last weekend was Halloween.
My Halloween, pretty much. Went to the Village and Union Square. It rained a bit. My boyfriend slept over that Saturday and Friday. Then I went to IHOP on Sunday so I had a good weekend. This weekend isn’t working out too well because I’m sick. I gave in and headed to Hot Topic because they had their 50% off of the clearance sale. I always talk crap about Hot Topic but when HorrorPops and Combichrist shirts are on sale for $5 I’m willing to compromise my morals. It wasn’t that bad actually, considering that stores like Gothic Renaissance, The VF store and Trash and Vaudeville are a bit too expensive for me to buy things there. I guess Hot Topic is kind of like the Walmart of “alternative” (hehehehe) wear. You can get your basics for a moderately good price. You just look trashy if you buy everything there. I was going to put in pictures of people who go to my school but I decided not to be an asshole. I feel so kind. I just don’t understand what would make people want to wear a neon green tutu with purple skulls adorned by pink lace….urgggg.
EW. EW. EW. EW. EW. EW.
I need to get out of high school and go to a city that has a better music scene…
Oh, London. Oh, Berlin. Oh, Los Angeles.
Aw, my cat just walked over to me, started purring and then he licked my lips.
I’ve been writing in my notebook a lot this week.
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: children, cinema, funny, funny incidents with children, gold diggers of 1933, good movies, good old movies, grey's anatomy, i hate children, pizza cone, Tinkerbell and the lost treasure
Das ist meine Katze, Oscar.
Today I had pizza that was shaped like a cone. It was Hawaiian pizza. It tasted kind of disgusting and I must admit that it made me nauseous.
EAAAAT CONEEEE PIZZZZZZAAAAA. MRAAAAOOOWWWWEERRRRRR.
I’m watching Gold Diggers of 1933 with my mom on TCM and it’s great. They had an African American and an Asian couple in it! Hm, now the women are wearing gossamer clothes with really really nice stockings. Where do I get stockings that nice? Hahahaha now they’re stripping behind screens. Silhouetted breasts! This is hilarious. And now they’re wearing…chastity devices? And a midget just gave this guy a can opener for the chastity device. I never knew that 1933 was so…sensual…
“I know these show girls. They’re just little parasites. Little gold diggers.”
Oh these men have such amazing coats. I love a man in a nice coat.
Such nice lingerie. They sure love showing it.
Ugh my mom just changed the channel to Grey’s Anatomy. I don’t like Grey’s Anatomy because it’s so extremely overly dramatic and completely catty. I’m still watching Grey’s Anatomy and it’s been about 15 minutes since it started. Now a burn victim is choking to death. Haha, she’s so unnaturally blue.
I just saw a commercial for Tinkerbell and The Lost Treasure. Why does Tinkerbell look like a prostitute? Why is she now a computer generated image?
This is disgusting.
Plus, I saw her getting rescued by a guy during the commercial. Hah, we’re getting far!
I want to move to Germany or Britain because I’d get to go to so many EPIC shows. And festivals. Ugh.
IS IT REALLY AS AMAZING AS IT SEEMS.
I hate annoying little kids. The other day I was at Target stocking up on towels…inthehalloweensection…and this kid said
“THAT GIRL IS SCARY, SOMEONE SHOULD DRESS UP AS HER FOR HALLOWEEN”.
I laughed so hard. It would be even funnier if that kid could be aborted at 6 years old but he can’t be. He is going to grow up to be a member of society. He might teach your children one day.
His owners tried to get him to be quiet but it’s really hard to get STUPID children to be quiet. They don’t understand things, obviously. Then I said
“Someone should dress up as you for Halloween” and his face literally looked like this -
O___O
He then exclaimed that he should leave because I might start scaring people.
I then growled.
My BOYFRIEND…
hah.
I used the term boyfriend, do I sound like a breeder yet?
Well anyway, my boyfriend and I are going to have super cool coordinating Halloween costumes. We might add in things for shock value.
I hope that Miko will consider this another non-creepy heterosexual relationship.
Just thinking about Halloween makes me sing Every Day is Halloween. Then I get depressed and I remember that no one in my school besides me appreciates that song. At least no one that I know of. Hah, early Ministry is so…so.
Why are you dressed like it’s Halloween, you look so absurd, you look so obscene!
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: cheek piercings, cute kitten, forever 21, good black lipstick, gothic renaissance, i hate shopping, mac black line, mac cosmetics, makeup review, my cat, my kitten, nyc, piercings, shopping rant, the cramps, vac, vampire freaks store, velvet acid christ
Oscar Lux Voltaire happens to be my cat.
Oscar = It fits him.
Lux = 
(lux interior)
Voltaire = The philosopher and the musician and Cabaret Voltaire (I’m an ass).
I keep listening to the song “Lust” By Velvet Acid Christ. I’m alternating it with the Drifters so that I don’t go insane. I have eclectic taste in music, what can I say.
So I tried to go shopping today. I had $60. I didn’t buy anything aside from a milkshake and a metrocard.
Hahahaha. I definitely do not consume 1,800 – 2,000 calories in a day. So I tried on EIGHT THINGS at Buffalo Exchange, stopped at Trash to look at the shoes (I always feel poor and not well endowed when I go in there). Stopped at Gothic Renaissance (I hate that store). I also stopped at Forever 21 (bad music as usual) and The Vampire Freaks store. Oh and Joyce Leslie. Just to look at the undies.
I have come to the conclusion that I suck at shopping, just a little bit.
I’m ultra picky and ultra cheap. Maybe a visit to Williamsburg would be more beneficial but the last time I had enough money to buy clothes I didn’t buy anything. Meh meh meh meh.
Aside from me sucking at shopping I had a really nice day. I walked so much with DesiDesiDesi he’s fun I like him. I also like listening to The Cramps when I get dressed in the morning. I did that today and it made me feel so much better. I listened to “I Wanna Get In Your Pants” and I hit on myself in the mirror.
I’ve been trying to decide on a new piercing, I am CRAVING a new one.
I’ve had quite a few piercings. I gave up trying to list them chronologically, so I’ll just list them.
Eyebrow, Snakebites, Lip piercing (x3 hahaha or something like that), navel, monroe (x2), septum (x2), stretched lobes, standard second earlobe piercing, nostril piercing (x2), etc.
(Most of these are retired, x2 means I repierced it).
The only piercings that I really want right now are the ones my mom DESPISES -
CHEEK PIERCINGS.
DIMPLE PIERCINGS.
I’m ridiculously in love with them, have been for about a year and a half. She’s fine with tattoos but not cheek piercings. I guess I’ll actually have to wait until I’m 18 as to not piss her off completely. Or 17 since I’ll be in college by then.
BRIEF MAKEUP REVIEW.
That’s me wearing my new black lipstick from MAC cosmetics. I don’t care if I look like an awkward tranny here. I don’t have lipstick on my teeth Michael! Anyway, the lipstick is nice and glossy and stays on pretty well, it is prone to bleeding so I need to actually pick up a lip liner. Not for the faint of heart. I wear a couple of layers of it since I want it to be pitch black.
